I was lonely. In a dark place. At 19, I was in my own house, disconnected from family and friends. Struggling to pay rent. Out of my own despair, I turned to sex. I wasn't in college, and my day job barely brought enough home to feed myself. The first months in my home were so lonely, I tested on myself. At home, I watched porn, and it got my mind going. My parents didn't want to have that "toxicity" in there home, so out I went. They would disown me even more if they found out what I was doing. Being awkward around people didn't help with my constant needs and urges, so I solved the problem myself. I went and bought toys to fulfill my pleasures. Tonight was just a repeat of what I'd been doing for months. I took the dildo and began rubbing it up and down my clit.